Okay, here's how it's going to go: I am going to work on myself. For now on, i'm going to focus exclusively on myself, not trying to sound self centered or anything. But from this point on I need to pick myself up from this sluggish attitude I have about everything and start making my life better. I am constantly unhappy with how things are, but I am not doing anything to fix it.
It's really crucial that I pick up my grades and become more involved with the school now, before it's too late. I would like to end the school year with a couple A's if possible. I've noticed I have an "I don't care" attitude about school in general and I need to get out of that phase before it becomes permanent. I need to start studing and preparing for upcoming assignments, and I also need to make sure I have all of my work turned in before it's too late (Ram).
And another big issue I need to deal with is how I act towards my mother. Today is Mother's Day and I believe I have given her the worst mother's day of her life. I constantly argued with her all throughout the day, and I think I may have made her cry. I feel dreadfully, unbelievably horrible that I pushed her to say some of the things she said to me today. She went as far to say that only one out of the three kid she has loves her. And the one she was addressing is in jail. She definitely does not deserve to be treated the way I treat her and I am terribly sorry for everything I did to hurt her. Before this day is over I have to apologize and make the rest of her day wonderful as possible. I must've forgetten this is MOTHER'S DAY, not nasty, rude, ungrateful, teenage daughter day. Now, I have to finish this up so I can go make my mama happy she had me. Bye.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Hello everyone!
I'm starting to realize that things have changed a lot. It seems as thought the people, places, and activities have changed quite drastically since way back when. I've noticed the innocence in some people has just evaportated, just desentegrated completly from their lives. A lot of the people I pass in the halls aren't the same person they were a year ago; it seems as though they've lost their character, their conscience, their something! I don't know...But what I do know is that I don't like it. At ALL!
Is it just me, or is almost everyone making a change for the worst? I know I have a problem with change, and I understand that, but if you are doing something good and it's making you happy, why change it? Why disturb your happiness if it can keep going? I know that changes are good if they are to better something, and changes are bad if they are going from good to worst. But some people just change just to change, for no particular reason at all. I don't understand it. I know life is all about moving forward, and maybe that's my problem. I can stay in one place for a very long time if i'm satisfied with it. But some people just can't stay still, they have to move, even if it's in the WRONG direction (some people reading this know what I'm talking about).
One thing that is definetly changing is the way that school is run. School was different last year, it was better. And I heard that school was even better before that. I thought Open was all about being different, special, and above normal high schools, it seems like its moving towards becoming like any other school. These issues need to be addressed and handled properly or they will continue and get worse with time.
I'm starting to realize that things have changed a lot. It seems as thought the people, places, and activities have changed quite drastically since way back when. I've noticed the innocence in some people has just evaportated, just desentegrated completly from their lives. A lot of the people I pass in the halls aren't the same person they were a year ago; it seems as though they've lost their character, their conscience, their something! I don't know...But what I do know is that I don't like it. At ALL!
Is it just me, or is almost everyone making a change for the worst? I know I have a problem with change, and I understand that, but if you are doing something good and it's making you happy, why change it? Why disturb your happiness if it can keep going? I know that changes are good if they are to better something, and changes are bad if they are going from good to worst. But some people just change just to change, for no particular reason at all. I don't understand it. I know life is all about moving forward, and maybe that's my problem. I can stay in one place for a very long time if i'm satisfied with it. But some people just can't stay still, they have to move, even if it's in the WRONG direction (some people reading this know what I'm talking about).
One thing that is definetly changing is the way that school is run. School was different last year, it was better. And I heard that school was even better before that. I thought Open was all about being different, special, and above normal high schools, it seems like its moving towards becoming like any other school. These issues need to be addressed and handled properly or they will continue and get worse with time.
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